What I really want to be ?

Hello there. I am Ujjwal Gaihre and honsetly, I don't have a clean answer to this question yet. Most people my age seem to have a direction. A goal. A thing they're building toward. I have questions. A lot of them. This blog is my attempt to think out loud about purpose, identity, and what it means to figure yourself out when nothing feels obvious.

If you're reading this and feeling the same way you're not alone.🌱

The honest me !

I am average at most things. Not the smartest in the room. Not the most disciplined. Not confident. And the hardest part? From the very beginning of my life — I have been exactly like this. Nothing changed. Not even a little bit. You'd think by now something would shift. Some moment would hit and suddenly I'd wake up different. More focused. More sure of myself. But no. Same me. Every morning.

It's not like I didn't try.

I tried. Many times. Different versions of the same promise to myself this time will be different. this time I'll stick to it. But every single time — I ended up back at the same place. Same habits. Same excuses. Same me.😶

And after a while, you stop being surprised. You just get tired.